You may ask why Alice has not updated in such a long time. . . well, my head hurts! I am so full of Polish words and phrases which I can say half the time and remember the meaning the other half. It has been a good time but also a frustrating time. For the past 3 days I have gone to class only out of obedience to God and why I am here. I am drinking Polish "water" out of a fire hose right now and my head is swimming!
Today, I think everyone felt this way. Few were understanding the teachers and the teacher's normal enthusiasm, well, just was not there. We are all tired and we still have another two weeks! Ahh!!!
God has been good though. Even today as I was feeling lost and sorry for myself, I was begging our Father for mercy. At break time, I was praying to remember the words that I am trying to learn and just can not keep in my head when my teacher from last semester asked to sit with me. She asked me how I was doing and I answered honestly, "smutny."(sad). She smiled and told me (in Polish) that all of her students were feeling that way today. Her siting down with me and speaking to me in Polish and my understanding it was God's mercy just moments after I cried for it. He has done something similar each time I have asked. One day I even left class, got into my car and cried tears of frustration. As I drove back to Skoczów, where I am staying, (about 20 minutes) a calm came on me, not peace, but calm. The next morning I drove the same way and the calm was replaced with peace. It was the first day that I has considered not going to class, but I did. Class was not easy, but it also was not "masakra!" (disaster!) It has been a wonderful, yet stretching time for me.
Next month I am not doing any Polish classes at all. My head needs time to settle and I need to use what I am learning. I am trying to find people in the church who will be willing to meet with me each day and just let me talk, or try to. :)
Please pray for me to stop listening to the lie that I need to get this all now in order to be a good steward of God's money. I am struggling with the the thought that I have to learn in big bites when everyone here says I need to take smaller ones. :) One day I am fine and the next, I hear the whispers. Please pray that I only listen to the voice of my Shepherd!